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I want to become physically mute

2021.11.29 10:50 Wanttobephysicalmute I want to become physically mute

I (20m) want to pay a doctor to remove my vocal cords so I can’t speak normally. I know it will never happen due to it being an illegal medical practice. But due to this want I’ve lowered how much I talk to around 1,000 words a day and most of it is required at my job.
The only reason I can think of as to why I have this feeling all the time is that my mom was very emotionally and verbally harmful to me and my siblings and they rarely let me talk mostly by assuming they knew what I was saying during arguments and normal talks alike. It made my words not matter. I just had to get this off my chest because it’s starting to affect how I interact with others.
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2021.11.29 10:50 themoochiest Here we go again. More heartache…

I don’t even know where to begin. So sorry for the wall of text…
In late 2013 my wife (fiancé at the time) had a mental breakdown, ended up being diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder. During this timeframe (December-ish-January) I found she was having a sexual relationship with someone that came through her job. It was messy, really messy. She ended up pregnant with him. We split up during that timeframe, only keeping in contact because we have 3 kids and needed to do custody exchanges. She ended up with a miscarriage and attempted suicide. Luckily she failed and throughout the next few months she got the help she needed and we reconciled. We got married, life went on. During these following years, I don’t think I ever mentally recovered from it all. I have huge trust issues with her. She’s ALWAYS accused me of cheating on her. I’ve never cheated physically on her, I liked some random pictures on Instagram of girls and whatnot and she’s always claimed that since I do that I cheat on her with everyone all over town. I may have deceived her but I have never carried or had an inappropriate relationship with anyone. Big thing recently was she found a pair of my underwear that had some…ejaculant…in them, but it was only from getting sexually aroused in them, maturbating quickly, and rushed the cleanup process. She never said anything about it until tonight (I’ll get to it).
But again, life moved on.
She’s always had a huge problem with alcohol. She can’t turn down a drink. And when she does drink she get uncontrollable and belligerent. I always end up having to babysit her or we end up fighting over the stupidest things. It happens every time so much so that it’s a normal thing for us. I’ve always told her she’s got problems with alcohol and she needs to get it under control and it always just gets brushed off and I end up the asshole. On top of all this, she works at the most popular and busy bar in town.
On Friday night/ Saturday morning the bar closes at 1am. She calls me at just past 2am asking me if I wanted to go with her to a friends house for one drink. I had to be up at 6am for work. I said no and she stated she was going to go but only for 10 minutes because she didn’t really want to go either. I don’t like this, I feel she needs to be home. I know her past and her problems, it’s not good. I told her “yeah, you’re not going to just stay for 10 minutes. You physically aren’t capable of doing that. You’ll be there all night.”
Of course she didn’t like that comment and again confirmed it would only be 10 minutes. I went to bed and woke back up in what I thought was around 30 minutes but was instead over an hour and what do you know…she isn’t home. I sent her a snarky message “10 minutes, huh? Told you you weren’t capable of it.” To which she replied “k”. At 5:53am she comes stumbling through the door.
My alarm goes off minutes later for work and you can cut the tension in the air. I was mad. Still am, honestly. I get ready for work. Leave. Remember, she’s always assumed I’m cheating and for some reason she has it out for a specific 2 truck stops that are near my work. I stopped on my way to grab some snacks and a coffee for the day and as I’m pull out of the parking lot on my way down the road she calls and when I answer she says something like “you better leave now” I didn’t u detest and what she said so I asked her “what?” and she hung up. I didn’t have time to put up with her. I was pulling up to work when she called. I opened up the building to get my day started. I’ve had to deal with this shit so much the past few years that I just blew it off. She immediately send me a text:

You want me to come to the gas station Get out of the parking lot Move your ass out of the parking lot now Or I will make a scene Don’t you ever let my boss call me again You have got to be kidding me I’m better than this bull shiit
I’m not dealing with it. I’m mad from her not coming home. When I get mad I close up. I don’t talk. I’ll ignore her. I can’t help it, or at least I think I can’t, but it’s what I do. I didn’t talk to her at all that day. I came home early from work and she was passed out on the couch. I went to the bedroom and took a nap since I was up late and out to work early. Woke up and she was getting ready for work, early than usual. She walked out the door an hour early that she usually does. Didn’t think anything of it. Day goes on and I go to bed. She comes home on time but Im already asleep. So the morning comes, I get up and dressed. I got yard work to do. Still not talking to her so I get my two sons outside with me to help. We finish a few hours later and it’s her time to go to work again. She leaves on time. Later on in the night I had a problem with a bill that I was paying so I messaged her what was going on. She replied. Conversation ends. It’s Sunday, the bar closes at 10pm. She comes home at 12:15am. She walks in, bathroom, strait to bed. I close the house down and get in the shower because I work in the morning. I come out and she’s asleep. I lay in bed and browse the internet and roll over for bed. I can’t sleep. Somethings bothering me. She’s not acting right.
I get up and (it’s pathetic and invasive, I know) I go to her phone. I go through it. All of it. Find Snapchat messages she thought she deleted with a guy, find out how she’s tracking me (‘Find My’ app on work iPhone). I took pictures of it all. My heart started beating so loud. The room was dead quite but it sounded like my heard was bouncing off the walls. I was going to let it go until a better time. Use it as leverage. But I couldn’t. My mouth opened without my assistance. I woke her up.
I asked her and she played it off like she didn’t know wtf I was talking about. Begged for me to turn the now-on lights. I begged for her to get up so we could talk. She continues to deny. Deny deny deny. Didn’t want to get up. I gave up. “Whatever, I knew you were anyways” I said as I walked out the door. That didn’t settle well with her. She chased me out. She sat on the couch and just continue to unload on me that I’m the cause of her metal condition. I’m the problem. Yadda yadda yadda. I stayed calm and attempted to keep her on track about the messages I found. She said nothing happened and laughed that I even thought anything was happened (check linked pictures). She continues to laugh and walks off to bed.
Now here I am, laying on the couch, not crying or anything like I was the first time. Just utterly hurt. I know she will continue to gaslight me. I love her. I don’t want to divorce her, but…
Sorry if this seems a little scattered. I may be leaving out some info. Feel free to ask and suggest. I’m just lost and hurt…again.
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2021.11.29 10:50 babynewyear753 Weather report question

Hey all. Does anyone know where specifically this report is focused? (i.e. village or further up?). Looking at you vail mgr types.
50f fcst high in the village is presumably very different from 50f high elsewhere.
Thinking a cold peak is at least helpful up there.
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2021.11.29 10:50 SPAC_Time Greenrose Acquisition Corp. Announces Closing of Business Combination with Theraplant - GNRS GNRSW (OTCBB)

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2021.11.29 10:50 bigmoneybaby120 All the cheesecakes on the post about the jesus statue having toilet water dripping onto it

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2021.11.29 10:50 Elite_Senzi Why do people pay $100s of dollars for Microsoft word?

I just pirate Microsoft word and get the same program for free xd. I feel like most people need to be educated that you don’t have to pay companies ridculaos amount of money for something you can legit download for free. I got Microsoft word after a quick download while people spend so much. So why do people pay for it? Do they not know that you can Download it easy for free?
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2021.11.29 10:50 Vannbong Flowers

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2021.11.29 10:50 baby-g Moving drives from RAID 1 into JBOD enclosure

Context : Small videography company, filling up a 4TB drive every few months. Currently a RAID 1 array to save rushes and completed projects. Current project files are saved to a Dropbox, and in-use rushes are on external drives.
My boss had been using a WD My Book Duo, but I recently found out about the drive encryption and not being able to read these drives without the enclosure. Big problem - looking to buy a LaCie 2big, or something similar to replace it.
When the RAID is full, drives are removed and stored - but it's a pain in the ass accessing files from old drives, so would like them more easily accessible.
In my mind, the easiest way to do this would be to split the drives, one goes offsite, and the other goes (in read-only/all folders locked) into a 4 or 5 drive JBOD enclosure This would allow quick access to our most recent handful of drives at all times.
Is this even possible? Can you just stick a drive that's half of a RAID 1 in a JBOD and read from it, without it thinking it needs its partner, or the enclosure needing you to format it before it will work in its new home?
I'm don't mind about the RAID parity being broken between the pairs of drives, as the two will never be reunited once separated, nothing new will be saved onto them once out of the RAID enclosure.

I understand RAID is not a backup, but with the projects in the cloud and current rushes spread over other drives, I think this seems workable for us. However, I also am aware I don't really know what I'm talking about, so please put me in my place if necessary. Have done quite a bit of reading around here but up to my eyeballs now and need some help!

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2021.11.29 10:50 random_less Poem time

If only she knew, how her smile deepens mine, If only she knew, how her words affect time. If only she knew, how she makes my sleep rare, If only she knew, how the dreams cant compare. If only she knew, how i whisper her name, If only she knew, how it feels so profane. If only she knew, how i longed for her touch, If only she knew, how her hugs meant so much. If only she knew, how i've waited to kiss her, If only she knew, that i learned she's my sister. submitted by random_less to teenagers [link] [comments]

2021.11.29 10:50 enjoyweaver I’m looking for some help learning solidity programming.

Would anyone be willing to teach me solidity programming and adding functions in-person?
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2021.11.29 10:50 ike_the_human What are some movies with a big difference between the IMDb rating and Letterboxd rating?

I was looking at the page for Bohemian Rhapsody on both sites. The average score on IMDb is 7.9, while on Letterboxd, it is a 3.4 (or 6.8 on the IMDb scale). What are some other examples of large gaps between the IMDb rating and Letterboxd rating?
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2021.11.29 10:50 Longliveasaprocky Cut and Sew Mystery Box Small

Did the small cut and sex mystery box ever sell out and just restocked or is it just sitting because nobody wants it.
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2021.11.29 10:50 HomielessHobo I am so proud of this community :')

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2021.11.29 10:50 Numerous-Smile-8854 Just wanted to show my 3 star Orianna. And yes, she one shotted most of this guy team

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2021.11.29 10:50 CaptainGrievous127 Is my necklace ok?

Is my necklace ok?
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2021.11.29 10:50 UnknownUnemployed !!!Interested people can DM me!!! Check out and follow my new collection PixelLike but Lego Greek Mythology Only 0.012 ETH

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2021.11.29 10:50 Sulla_theFelix What interesting experiences did you have in your first playthrough?

I will start with my fight with Runt.
I didn't know the existence of master strike and even can't properly do perfect blocks. In the end I failed so many times in sword fighting that I ended up using my shitty bow like a shotgun and accidentally one-shot him in the head after another few fails when he is slashing me using the long sword lol.
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2021.11.29 10:50 Symphonization my man looking like a god

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2021.11.29 10:50 lukipedia Cyber Monday Deals

Some good deals to be had on medical gear.
25% off at North American Rescue (code SAVENOW) https://www.narescue.com/2021-black-friday-sale.html
30% off select items / 15% off everything else at Rescue Essentials (no code) https://www.rescue-essentials.com
25% off at the NOLS store (code GIFT2021) https://store.nols.edu/collections/first-aid-supplies
Post any other deals y'all find here!
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2021.11.29 10:50 TheSmackSmith Favorite Elf Tribe from The Original Quest?

View Poll
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2021.11.29 10:50 Miacd420 Out for drinks who wants to join me?💃🤪😘

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2021.11.29 10:50 waterpelyn Lrrr? Is that you??

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2021.11.29 10:50 Jezzi89 Going to the doctors to check for UC tomorrow. These are my symptoms.. what do you think?

The past few months I have used the bathroom quite frequently. The last month getting worse going 3:4 times a day. Soft stools but passable. A doctor said IBS once a few months ago.
But I’m having having a clearly bad digestion issue the last 4 days
The first couple of days it happened twice but the last two days I’ve been having a very mucasy wet feces.
When I use the toilet to urinate and feel like I need to pass air, I’ll gently push and mucasy/wet droplets come out each time.
When I whipe there is sometimes no brown, just mucas.
It’s happened every single time I went toilet today which is several.
I feel like I need to go to the bathroom to release a full bowel movement but I can’t. It’s almost like I’m constipated feeling but clearly I’m not? Because mucas is coming out. It’s really frustrating.
I’m scared the doctor will just say “eat more fibre or something”
How do I make sure they check properly and what should I get tested for?
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2021.11.29 10:50 Divritenis Cyril is getting the tattoo

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